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Thursday, October 8, 2009
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Kind of feeling really confused, like really really confused. I'm torn between decisions. Went to take dinner and visit my grandparents just now and so I went in to say hello to my grandfather. I saw plasters on his leg, so I asked if he was ok as he was already taking medicine from NUH. And he told me that he was getting better .. But he also said that he had met his friend who has the same leg probems as him but his friend has amazingly recovered in just 3 days while my grandfather has been taking his medicine for like 4 months. I kind of expected what my grandfather would want to do. And yes, I guessed correctly. He got the receipt of the medicine that his friend was taking and he is going Johor to get the medicine as he finds the medicine from NUH not effective. Okay, so here comes what I'm worrying about.
My grandfather is going to buy another type of medicine for himself because he has leg problems and he finds that the medicine given by the NUH doctors are not really working for him. But the thing that I'm worried about is that I got no idea what medicine he will be buying, what kind of stuff the medicine is made of. Even if it might be effective, it might not be safe to consume. And my grandfather's already taking medicine from NUH. What makes it worse is that I'm not supposed to let my parents know because my grandfather told me not to tell anybody and also, I wouldn't want to let them know because I'm afraid that they might quarrel with my grandfather. My father already knows that my grandfather is mixing his medicine ... And my dad is like .. really .. frusrated? Worried? Can't really think of the word. Its just the kind of feeling when someone is not doing the right thing when they're supposed to although you're trying your best to help them? Okay. Yup. And if I don't let my parents know, and anything happens to my grandfather if he takes the medicine that he buys from Johor, I will never be able to forgive myself for not letting my parents know. I'll probably regret for life. Can anyone tell me what exactly should I do? The right decision that I have to make? I don't want to make a wrong decision. A wrong decision with the risk of losing ... my grandfather.
Oh yes. It hurts when your grandparents talk about the past. Like there was this sentence when my grandmum said (in chinese) about the times that my dad brought them to this particular place to eat. It really feels very ... sad when I heard this. As in .. my dad is already working very hard to support the whole family. The five of us including himself plus both my grandparents. I guess its just a matter of time. Like when my father has his own family (which includes me) and he won't be able to find so much time to spend with my grandparents and they might probably feel very lonely. And I believe they will definitely miss the times when we spend time together. Or when everybody gets a get-together. I wonder why its so hard. We're so busy with our own lives that we neglect our grandparents. Thereafter, we regret when its already too late. Imagine living in a house 24 hours a day, lying on your bed in the room or sitting in the living room watching TV. It may seem like a very relaxed life. But will we have anybody to talk to? Will we get tired of this kind of life? Yes, if we can imagine. Then imagine our grandparents in this situation. How would they feel? What would they be thinking about?
Okay. So I'm feeling very down today. Kind of have million of random thoughts running in my mind. Thinking about all the posibilities that might happen. And how I will regret not doing things that I should in the future when its already too late. By the way, there's a serious lack of motivation when eoys are just about less than 10 days away. But nevertheless, jiayou people! Fighting! RVCC, we never crash, ever.
Tag Replies:
Raphael: Haha ..Maybe sometimes being nice is good, but at times it becomes really tiring to be nice.. And there are people who might take it for granted and think otherwise. Hahas.. if you get what I mean .. I guess this is what life is all about. Btw, jiayou for eoys Raphael! (:
Ci En: Hoho. Hellos! :D Hahas, FIGHTING! jiayou! Saw your fb status when you said that everybody seems to be mugging thats why fb is so dead. Don't worry. You got a junior who has no motivation or can't really get the facts into her head. Hoho. There's a saying that goes "Winning is not everything. Wanting to win is." Maybe we can change it to "Studying is not everything. Wanting to study is." ^^
Mag: HAHA, OKAYS! (: Will try to do my best for SDMA and not 丢 <3ZINC 的脸！Hahas, mag! You must jiayou jiayou for eoys and sdma also! Then we can MAPLEEE together as ZINC after eoys! Hohoho! Exictteedd :D
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Thursday, September 17, 2009
Typed out a super long post. And blogger just deleted everyting D:
So I would just have to cut everything short, and I have cut it really short.
My previous post was much much longer and detailed :(
It has been about a week NJRC has passed, and I'm really missing Zinc, alot.
But I guess, there's things in life that we have to put down..
And I'm really really happy that I'm still saying hello and chatting with my seniors (:
Hmm. So life has been revolving around normal school day.
I can say, it has been rather stressful and I'm rather confused and tired.
Things that I had least expected had happened.
Friendship has turned into a clearer word to me after what has happened in fact.
I've come to the fact that maybe some friends arent worth your care and concern.
Because of what they've done behind you, although you treated them as a friend.
Anyways, I was watching a Channel U show just now, a sort of volunteer show.
There were mediacorp artists who went around the world to help others.
And this week, they went to mongolia to help the orphanage children..
When I watched the show, I was thinking "That's how simple life can be."
The children there, their life has been spent so wonderfully ...
They are going through and enjoying what I really call life.
Everyday, they are facing the blue skys, green fields,cattle and spending time together.
They have to cook for themselves, look after themselves, sleep together etc.
And the people they have with them are, friends. They go through thick and thin together.
Friends are their source of love, what's keeping them going.
There they are, living a not so fortunate yet happy and simple life.
Here we are, facing stress from exams, having friendship/family problems, not being
contented with ourselves, procastinating life ...
Why is it that we cannot treat life from another perspective?
On how fortunate we are to have been born in such a wonderful environment ..
While there are children out there who's living independantly, who's living such a simple life.
Its not that we have been treated differently, its just that we were born into different 'worlds'.
Our definition of the word 'happiness'.
To them, happiness was time spending together with each other. The laughter and smiles that
were on their faces came from the bottom of their hearts.
To us, happiness is scoring well at examinations, winning over our peers in what we do, getting
crazy over our idols etc.
See how big the difference can be?
There was this boy there in mongolia.
He had been in the orphange for 7 years because his mum had taken drugs.
Through that 7 years, his mum has visited him only once. Just that one time.
She never came back again. Never.
However, when the artist asked if the boy would ever want to see his mum again if she came back, his reply was " Yes, definitely."
When I was watching till this part, I was like ... ... never am I going to forgive my mum if she had done this to me. But this boy has taught me that family really is everything. If even him, who has been abandoned by his mum for 7 years is willing to forgive his mum, why are we quarelling with our parents everyday over small things? Is forgiveness really that difficult?
The artist also asked him what was he wish (it was his b'day) and this was what we replied:
"I don't know, I really don't know. I'm not even sure if I'll be dying tomorrow."
And when he was asked what his wish was, his reply:
"I want to have a house. So that I can live with my sisters and mum."
That simple. That's how simple a dream of a 16 year old boy can be.
I'm wondering. Is it that difficult to change our perspective of life? Probably, yes.
Cherish Life. Love Life. Imagine. Imagine how it would be like if we lived in another 'world.'
I am going to work hard. FIGHTING SASHA! :D
Tag Replies:
Nat: hahas!(: HELLO NATNAT! :D 'can you feel zinc's love tonight?' hahaha! xD
Christabel: CHRISTABEL YANG! (: hellos! heheh, jiayous for EOYs! basketball!
Mag: Hahaha, yup! Because we're ZINC<3! And yes, zinc will be in my heart
forever too! (: miss you all alot alot already! *BIGGGGHUGGGGGG!* And I am
very very very touched after reading your blog! :D There's a few sentences
that have become my inspiration!
Raphael: Thanks Raphael! (: You too! Jiayous! Fighting! Hahas, smile! :D
Kenneth: Hellos kenneth! Hahaha, you are nice! (: Must not emo,be happy kays! Be positive! Fighting! Yups, hope we can work together soon, even if its not in rvcc! :D Must visit us ahh!
So I would just have to cut everything short, and I have cut it really short.
My previous post was much much longer and detailed :(
It has been about a week NJRC has passed, and I'm really missing Zinc, alot.
But I guess, there's things in life that we have to put down..
And I'm really really happy that I'm still saying hello and chatting with my seniors (:
Hmm. So life has been revolving around normal school day.
I can say, it has been rather stressful and I'm rather confused and tired.
Things that I had least expected had happened.
Friendship has turned into a clearer word to me after what has happened in fact.
I've come to the fact that maybe some friends arent worth your care and concern.
Because of what they've done behind you, although you treated them as a friend.
Anyways, I was watching a Channel U show just now, a sort of volunteer show.
There were mediacorp artists who went around the world to help others.
And this week, they went to mongolia to help the orphanage children..
When I watched the show, I was thinking "That's how simple life can be."
The children there, their life has been spent so wonderfully ...
They are going through and enjoying what I really call life.
Everyday, they are facing the blue skys, green fields,cattle and spending time together.
They have to cook for themselves, look after themselves, sleep together etc.
And the people they have with them are, friends. They go through thick and thin together.
Friends are their source of love, what's keeping them going.
There they are, living a not so fortunate yet happy and simple life.
Here we are, facing stress from exams, having friendship/family problems, not being
contented with ourselves, procastinating life ...
Why is it that we cannot treat life from another perspective?
On how fortunate we are to have been born in such a wonderful environment ..
While there are children out there who's living independantly, who's living such a simple life.
Its not that we have been treated differently, its just that we were born into different 'worlds'.
Our definition of the word 'happiness'.
To them, happiness was time spending together with each other. The laughter and smiles that
were on their faces came from the bottom of their hearts.
To us, happiness is scoring well at examinations, winning over our peers in what we do, getting
crazy over our idols etc.
See how big the difference can be?
There was this boy there in mongolia.
He had been in the orphange for 7 years because his mum had taken drugs.
Through that 7 years, his mum has visited him only once. Just that one time.
She never came back again. Never.
However, when the artist asked if the boy would ever want to see his mum again if she came back, his reply was " Yes, definitely."
When I was watching till this part, I was like ... ... never am I going to forgive my mum if she had done this to me. But this boy has taught me that family really is everything. If even him, who has been abandoned by his mum for 7 years is willing to forgive his mum, why are we quarelling with our parents everyday over small things? Is forgiveness really that difficult?
The artist also asked him what was he wish (it was his b'day) and this was what we replied:
"I don't know, I really don't know. I'm not even sure if I'll be dying tomorrow."
And when he was asked what his wish was, his reply:
"I want to have a house. So that I can live with my sisters and mum."
That simple. That's how simple a dream of a 16 year old boy can be.
I'm wondering. Is it that difficult to change our perspective of life? Probably, yes.
Cherish Life. Love Life. Imagine. Imagine how it would be like if we lived in another 'world.'
I am going to work hard. FIGHTING SASHA! :D
Tag Replies:
Nat: hahas!(: HELLO NATNAT! :D 'can you feel zinc's love tonight?' hahaha! xD
Christabel: CHRISTABEL YANG! (: hellos! heheh, jiayous for EOYs! basketball!
Mag: Hahaha, yup! Because we're ZINC<3! And yes, zinc will be in my heart
forever too! (: miss you all alot alot already! *BIGGGGHUGGGGGG!* And I am
very very very touched after reading your blog! :D There's a few sentences
that have become my inspiration!
Raphael: Thanks Raphael! (: You too! Jiayous! Fighting! Hahas, smile! :D
Kenneth: Hellos kenneth! Hahaha, you are nice! (: Must not emo,be happy kays! Be positive! Fighting! Yups, hope we can work together soon, even if its not in rvcc! :D Must visit us ahh!
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Friday, September 11, 2009
JIAYOUS RVCC FOR FINALS TMR! :D
WE OWN NJRC! JIAYOUS:
-NEON
-ASTATINE
-PLATINUM
-TITANIUM
-KRYPTON
-SELENIUM
RVCC FIGHTING!
ツZINC!
I want nobody nobody but ZINC! hahas.
Although we didn't get into finals, its ok, really!
ZINC will always be ZINC! the best best best!
Its not about winning, but about what I've learnt and gained ..
And all I can say is that I've gained things that are beyond explanation.
Experience, Love, Friendship, Memories, Fun and lots lots more.
I'm very very very happy that I've such great great seniors! <3
Mag! Justin! Zhi Kai! Kenneth!
We've worked together for months and bonded quite a lot :D
Time has really passed so fast and I really hope that it can rewind ..
It will definitely feel very very weird going for cca not working with team zinc ..
But anyways, TEAM ZINC WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART! :D
Mag: MAGGG! :D I LOVE YOU! You're team zinc's best best wonderful leader and you will always be! I rmb that I didn't talk much the first time I saw you, but I started talking quite a lot during camp (: And by now, hahaha, I think you know that I talk a lot ya! Hahas, I rmb the time during camp! When we held our hands together during night trail because we were the only girls! And we screamed when we were on the top floors! hahahas, all the memories we had (:
and also when we went to bath and looked up at the scary ceiling >< it has been such a memorable experience with you especially .. we have talked so much .. you're the greatest greatest senior that i've met and you're the first senior that I've really opened my heart to :D THANKKS MAG! Your time, effort, love you've put into team zinc! And the care and concern that you've shown to each and everyone of us! The times that you were worried for Zinc, the times you jumped and say " okay! okay! yay" when Zhi Kai gave a new idea, and the times you laughed and covered your face when justin wanted to take photos of you eating :D Haha, you must eat more alrights! You're so thin already! And NO! your head is not big! (: Hahahas, yepps, we'll take group photo together! I LOVE MAG! :D THREE CHEERS! WHEE! and and yess! all the encouraging smses that you've sent to team zinc! the times we've had together, will never ever become history cause i'll always rmb it! :D mag, you're the greatest team leader i can't imagine being in another group for NJRC'09!
Justin: JUSTINN! :D I still remember that time at mac lab you asked me something like why I didn't join robo or something related to NJRC, then I was like ... robo? And it turned out that you're not only my RV senior, RVCC senior, PEPS senior, but also my robotics club senior! Hahahas, we got destiny heh! maybe you'll even be my university senior! And I rmb you laughing when I told you that all the girls quitted robotics club :D And and I'm surprised that you rmb me from robotics club! haha, which was like abt 3 years ago.hahas! I love all your famous quotes you've said during our whole NJRC period! Its one of the most colourful memories! You'll always say: " JOKE LAH!" "YOU DISGUSTING" "CHICKEN BACKSIDE" "DON"T SPAM THE PAINT" and lots more (: and yesterday, when I say my peps senior, the guy from your batch, I suddenly sort of rmb seeing you in 6K! :DD yay! you will always be my senior! maybe in university too! hahaha, I don't think I will ever forget all these.. And you've really really put in a lot of effort into NJRC! Zinc knows, I know! :D you're a really really great senior and I know that you'll always be there for ZINC! THANKS justin for all that you've given zinc and the memories you've given me! ZINC MULTI!
ZINC;ROBO <3
Zhi Kai: ZHI KAII! :D I remember! NOBODY NOBODY! Your dance! I was laughing like crazy when I saw you dancing outside the com lab (: Maybe one day I'll get to see you dancing with wonder girls yah! Haha! You're zinc's senior and you've guided us through NJRC a lot! We all know that you've put in a lot a lot a lot of effort into robo and you've done us proud! :D was really worried yesterday when we saw you so stressed, scared that you would break down but you didn't and instead, you managed to pull through everything! (: YAYE! three cheers for zhi kai too! and I rmb the time you laughed a lot at mac also! :D THANKS for letting me play your laptop yesterday! I learn't to play a new game from you! hahas.. And I was really touched when you said you brought your laptop for us to play cause you know that we'll be bored (: Although this is your last NJRC, but your spirit will always be with us! And I'm very very sad that you'll be leaving rvcc nxt year ... But you must always rmb ZINC and come visit us okays? And yes yes yes! Let's play maple together as team ZINC after eoys! PROMISE? DEAL! :D hahas..
Kenneth: KENNETH! THANKS for being such a friendly senior! I rmb the first time we knew
our NJRC grouping outside the com lab .. Mag went back in to get paper and pen and I was left ouside with you guys .. Felt kind of lost but you kept waving and saying hello while I just looked at you saying hello :D And you were smiling a lot, so to me, you was and still is a very very friendly senior (: while we were outside the library, you kept asking me to talk more! hahas, and now, i feel very bonded to you guys and I feel very comfortable talking to you all (: you must take care of yourself okays? Rmb that I don't like to see anything sharp (: Zinc will always be there for you! And I rmb the times that you and Justin are together! Be it gay-ing together or working together :D must must jiayous alrights? As a chairperson and everything else! And you must always smile cause your smile is very very cheerful and it will bring a smile onto others also (: plus your bear! must fold more hearts so that it can fill up the whole tee-shirt of ( ........ )! hahas xD
To sum it all up, its only three words, I LOVE YOU!
ZINC! NO MATTER WHAT, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART! <3
THANKS FOR MAKING MY YEAR ONE SO MEMORABLE!
WE OWN NJRC! JIAYOUS:
-NEON
-ASTATINE
-PLATINUM
-TITANIUM
-KRYPTON
-SELENIUM
RVCC FIGHTING!
ツZINC!
I want nobody nobody but ZINC! hahas.
Although we didn't get into finals, its ok, really!
ZINC will always be ZINC! the best best best!
Its not about winning, but about what I've learnt and gained ..
And all I can say is that I've gained things that are beyond explanation.
Experience, Love, Friendship, Memories, Fun and lots lots more.
I'm very very very happy that I've such great great seniors! <3
Mag! Justin! Zhi Kai! Kenneth!
We've worked together for months and bonded quite a lot :D
Time has really passed so fast and I really hope that it can rewind ..
It will definitely feel very very weird going for cca not working with team zinc ..
But anyways, TEAM ZINC WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART! :D
Mag: MAGGG! :D I LOVE YOU! You're team zinc's best best wonderful leader and you will always be! I rmb that I didn't talk much the first time I saw you, but I started talking quite a lot during camp (: And by now, hahaha, I think you know that I talk a lot ya! Hahas, I rmb the time during camp! When we held our hands together during night trail because we were the only girls! And we screamed when we were on the top floors! hahahas, all the memories we had (:
and also when we went to bath and looked up at the scary ceiling >< it has been such a memorable experience with you especially .. we have talked so much .. you're the greatest greatest senior that i've met and you're the first senior that I've really opened my heart to :D THANKKS MAG! Your time, effort, love you've put into team zinc! And the care and concern that you've shown to each and everyone of us! The times that you were worried for Zinc, the times you jumped and say " okay! okay! yay" when Zhi Kai gave a new idea, and the times you laughed and covered your face when justin wanted to take photos of you eating :D Haha, you must eat more alrights! You're so thin already! And NO! your head is not big! (: Hahahas, yepps, we'll take group photo together! I LOVE MAG! :D THREE CHEERS! WHEE! and and yess! all the encouraging smses that you've sent to team zinc! the times we've had together, will never ever become history cause i'll always rmb it! :D mag, you're the greatest team leader i can't imagine being in another group for NJRC'09!
Justin: JUSTINN! :D I still remember that time at mac lab you asked me something like why I didn't join robo or something related to NJRC, then I was like ... robo? And it turned out that you're not only my RV senior, RVCC senior, PEPS senior, but also my robotics club senior! Hahahas, we got destiny heh! maybe you'll even be my university senior! And I rmb you laughing when I told you that all the girls quitted robotics club :D And and I'm surprised that you rmb me from robotics club! haha, which was like abt 3 years ago.hahas! I love all your famous quotes you've said during our whole NJRC period! Its one of the most colourful memories! You'll always say: " JOKE LAH!" "YOU DISGUSTING" "CHICKEN BACKSIDE" "DON"T SPAM THE PAINT" and lots more (: and yesterday, when I say my peps senior, the guy from your batch, I suddenly sort of rmb seeing you in 6K! :DD yay! you will always be my senior! maybe in university too! hahaha, I don't think I will ever forget all these.. And you've really really put in a lot of effort into NJRC! Zinc knows, I know! :D you're a really really great senior and I know that you'll always be there for ZINC! THANKS justin for all that you've given zinc and the memories you've given me! ZINC MULTI!
ZINC;ROBO <3
Zhi Kai: ZHI KAII! :D I remember! NOBODY NOBODY! Your dance! I was laughing like crazy when I saw you dancing outside the com lab (: Maybe one day I'll get to see you dancing with wonder girls yah! Haha! You're zinc's senior and you've guided us through NJRC a lot! We all know that you've put in a lot a lot a lot of effort into robo and you've done us proud! :D was really worried yesterday when we saw you so stressed, scared that you would break down but you didn't and instead, you managed to pull through everything! (: YAYE! three cheers for zhi kai too! and I rmb the time you laughed a lot at mac also! :D THANKS for letting me play your laptop yesterday! I learn't to play a new game from you! hahas.. And I was really touched when you said you brought your laptop for us to play cause you know that we'll be bored (: Although this is your last NJRC, but your spirit will always be with us! And I'm very very sad that you'll be leaving rvcc nxt year ... But you must always rmb ZINC and come visit us okays? And yes yes yes! Let's play maple together as team ZINC after eoys! PROMISE? DEAL! :D hahas..
Kenneth: KENNETH! THANKS for being such a friendly senior! I rmb the first time we knew
our NJRC grouping outside the com lab .. Mag went back in to get paper and pen and I was left ouside with you guys .. Felt kind of lost but you kept waving and saying hello while I just looked at you saying hello :D And you were smiling a lot, so to me, you was and still is a very very friendly senior (: while we were outside the library, you kept asking me to talk more! hahas, and now, i feel very bonded to you guys and I feel very comfortable talking to you all (: you must take care of yourself okays? Rmb that I don't like to see anything sharp (: Zinc will always be there for you! And I rmb the times that you and Justin are together! Be it gay-ing together or working together :D must must jiayous alrights? As a chairperson and everything else! And you must always smile cause your smile is very very cheerful and it will bring a smile onto others also (: plus your bear! must fold more hearts so that it can fill up the whole tee-shirt of ( ........ )! hahas xD
To sum it all up, its only three words, I LOVE YOU!
ZINC! NO MATTER WHAT, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART! <3
THANKS FOR MAKING MY YEAR ONE SO MEMORABLE!
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Thursday, September 10, 2009
TODAY'S THE BIG BIG DAY! (:
Its 1.36am so that means NJRC will start in abt 6 hours!
JIAYOUS ZINC!
I love love love you all!
Mag! Justin! Kenneth! Zhi Kai!
Let's do our best and have fun tomorrow!
{Mag;Sasha;Justin;Kenneth;ZhiKai}
Its 1.36am so that means NJRC will start in abt 6 hours!
JIAYOUS ZINC!
I love love love you all!
Mag! Justin! Kenneth! Zhi Kai!
Let's do our best and have fun tomorrow!
{Mag;Sasha;Justin;Kenneth;ZhiKai}
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Saturday, September 5, 2009
JIAYOUS RVCC!
Its not the end, just the beginning..
Let's stand up from where we've fallen, smile, and carry on.
Never give up!
We still have booth and robo! (:
不要放弃,笑着走下去!
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Monday, August 31, 2009
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
two words,
unexpected _________.
Baked cupcakes :D Yumyum.
JIAYOUSZINC!
lets jiayous till the very end! (:
JIAYOUS 1B!
end-of-years are coming!
JIAYOUS SASHA!
you got to start mugging! ><
although it seems quite impossible.
impossible is nothing.
nothing is impossible.
impossible is just a big word thrown around by small people.
hmm. -ponders-
wonders why these motivational words do not seem so motivating.
我不是真正的快乐，我的笑只是我穿的保护色。
two words,
unexpected _________.
Baked cupcakes :D Yumyum.
JIAYOUSZINC!
lets jiayous till the very end! (:
JIAYOUS 1B!
end-of-years are coming!
JIAYOUS SASHA!
you got to start mugging! ><
although it seems quite impossible.
impossible is nothing.
nothing is impossible.
impossible is just a big word thrown around by small people.
hmm. -ponders-
wonders why these motivational words do not seem so motivating.
我不是真正的快乐，我的笑只是我穿的保护色。
