Diiary ♥ 19

the world around me seems to be changing ...
ii'm not the old me anymore.
can anyone help me?
can ii trust someone?
can ii really give my heart to somebody?
why does it seems that everyone and everything has changed?
feeling really down ...
sat on the bus home just now.
ii was in a daze, just staring into thin air.
thought about many many things.
everybody seems to be on good terms with me.
but is that really true?
am ii really loved?
or deep inside their hearts, ii'm hated?
ii know, ii can't be perfect.
but ii'm really trying my best ...
can ii be given a chance?
ii really don't want to be hated ...
can ii please be loved?
if you hate me, can you just tell me that?
it will probably be better if you do so.
then the irritating me will not bother you anymore.
ii really want to love my friends, everyone of you.
ii'm willing to sacrifice myself for you ..
ii just feel like going into a deep deep sleep today ...
and to find myself awake with another me ...
but ii guess it will never happen.
ii'm just the same irriating girl ii am.

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♥ Sasha